the upside of my jury duty summons is a fully paid, non-vacation day, day off. i was not one of the chosen 12 and was dismissed with a have a nice day and thank you for fulfilling your civic duty.
well, mr. judge with a humorous streak and a positive attitude, you are quite welcome and thanks. thanks for a free afternoon to read a book and enjoy a frothed coffee beverage.
i saw the movie quite a while ago, and was so intrigued by some of the deep thoughts that the movie brought to light, that i decided i needed to read the book to fully explore its contents. i almost never read books after watching the movie, but in this case it was totally worth it.
while, i don’t agree with the character’s religious beliefs, i still feel like some of the philosophical notes run deep and demand attention.
“…it occurred to me that the voracious ambition of humans is never sated by dreams coming true, because there is always the thought that everything might be done better and again.”
this thought struck me. i read it about five times before it truly sunk in and revealed its meaning. but it’s there. it’s a harsh reality to face. we, as human beings, have dreams and desires, things that we long for, hope for, pray for. and sometimes, our longing, hopes, and prayers are answered, granted, met. we count ourselves lucky and speak prayers of thanksgiving.
and then we seem to immediately begin to long for, hope for, pray for something better, a chance to do it better next time, a bigger experience, so we live in a constant state of “voracious ambition” rather than in a state of contentment and thankfulness.
while it is not at bad to have dreams and desires, in fact, i believe we should. but we need to spend our time experiencing the beauty of the dreams and desires that have already been met. we don’t allow ourselves time to experience contentment or joy in our current state – good or bad.
Paul wrote to the church at Philippi,
“Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound…” Philippians 4:11 – 12.
Paul also wrote, to Timothy,
“Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment…It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.” 1 Timothy 6:6-11.
in the last year, ryan and i have faced tough decisions and some family trials. and in it’s wake i am looking back instead of grateful contentment i see my discontent, my continued desire for more. God has granted me many wonderful blessings and has brought me some of the greatest desires of my heart. and instead of resting in the gifts that he has given and the truth that he has spoken into my heart, i have chosen to rest in my insatiable desire for more.
in this book about teenagers facing death and facing the reality of a fallen world, they teach a valuable lesson, to notice the world around you, to find contentment in the life that you have been given, because like it or not, the truth is it is the only earthly life we are given.
joy and contentment will come when my deepest desires and dreams take root in the promises and faithfulness of my God and Savior.
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart…” Psalm 37: 3-5.
how i long for the desires of my heart to be in line with His desires for my heart. how i long to overcome the “voracious ambition” of the human heart and find the satisfaction of the heart of Jesus.